being sad after being depressed for years is so weird and totally debunks the whole “depression is just intense sadness” thing.

sad is so different. sad is stable. I am just sad. I’m not spiraling headlong into an irrational black hole of self-hatred over something totally irrelevant. I’m not shutting down emotionally. I’m not getting that drowning feeling that no amount of coping mechanisms can possibly rescue me from. I’m JUST SAD and it’s manageable and it’ll drift away in a little while.