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I got Miv a scarf to keep her neck ridges warm.

It is now OFFICIALLY Christmas here.
Commence Christmasing.

I hope everyone has a lovely Christmas, whatever the circumstances may be. Find some joy, even if it is just sitting alone in your room eating a peppermint stick.

The holidays are a time for family.

Yesterday I was chilling at the table after the move madness of the day and my dad was saying something about “war wounds” because he got a blood blister at some point during the furniture shifting. So I raised my glass and shouted “IT WAS A GLORIOUS BATTLE” in a husky Klingon voice and everyone kinda stared at me for a moment.

I swear I was so tired and burned out and giddy that, had I actually known one, I would have burst into a Klingon ballad at that moment.

Koril at the club.

so my family moved the entire move up and I’m freaking out now that we’re probably leaving Christmas day instead of New Year’s Eve.
nbd

it’s just my entire 25 years of life I’m packing up and saying goodbye to in the next three days.

yeah it was mostly crappy

but still

my family will probably never all be in the same place together again. I’ll never see this house again (which I’m actually glad of but it’s just weird). I’m leaving any last shred of stability and safety behind at the same time that I’m realizing that it never existed to begin with. Everything I was ever taught about love and family and purpose was based on lies and I am not sure how to process that yet.

So much is unknown and I have no safety net. If things go wrong…if I can’t afford this, if I get too sick to function…I’m one step away from being a mentally disabled homeless person.

Considering last year at this time, we were all enjoying a family vacation and making empty promises to always be there for each other…this is a bit of a shock to the system.

Delta quadrant “exploration”

Your head will make a fine trophy!