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Sitting here sobbing

actual tears

over my decision to sell my old horse tack.

I’m not even that attached to it emotionally. It’s not like Rain ever wore it or even got near it. I think it’s more the idea of what it represented to me. The dream. Going to the tack store and choosing it out for that someday when I would have a use for it. And as long as I had that tack, I could always do saddle-lifting exercises and pretend there was a horse standing there to put it on. There was always that connection to the horse world.

But it’s also kind of a giant painful space-hogging reminder that I’m no longer an active part of that world and that it’ll probably be quite a while before I can be again.

I’m keeping the saddle blanket I got in New Jersey and the stupid broken halter I got at my first lesson stable though.

kai-ni:

suzykabloozy replied to your post:
embrace that you have what nobody else has: a gaudy 70s-80s porcelain throne

It’s gaudy as hell

There are also old burn marks in the carpet but w/e nothing is perfect, especially old apartments.
immortalspark and I are going to make it cozy

This is the bathroom I have been living in the past 15 years.

Imagine doing makeup in that lighting. Imagine doing cosplay makeup in that lighting.
We also used to have a sink and wallpaper that matched. I tore the wallpaper down in a fit of rage one day. 

I think I can survive turquoise.

Most days I am pretty patient and tolerant of people.
But I have come to realize that there are some days when I cannot HANDLE people who can’t read a simple FAQ before asking the same questions everyone else has asked fifty thousand times.

*pulls hair out, lights it on fire, and throws it at them*