Tag: outlawthoughts

I am extremely, ugly jealous of people who live in buildings.

so I’m flying back to the place I was born and raised tomorrow
not sure how I feel about that
especially since it’s kinda on fire?

my friend is telling me how amazing her new horse is (she’s had him about a year now I think) and I am so happy for her
but at the same time…it keeps bringing back Rain memories.
damn this won’t ever stop hurting will it

So…that happened…

apparently I’m suddenly going to fly across the country to go to comic con, and also chill with my dad.

Because that went so well last time???

I miss cali so fucking much
the tack store in the old west carriage house
the fresh Mexican food smell in the evening breeze, accompanied by music and laughter
the constant sunshine
the grocery stores, fast food, restaurants, craft stores, thrift shops…all within walking distance or just a short bus ride away
the total strangers that always smiled at me
feeling safe
feeling like it was ok to be myself
being close to LA
Rain. dear god I miss that horse.
palm trees
rocky stubbly mountains
did I mention Mexican food because whatever the hell we have here is not Mexican food
the adorable neighbor family next door with the little girl who was obsessed with Justin Bieber
the packs of wild Chihuahuas that roamed
the little park at the end of the street
driving around in my magenta sports car and seeing people’s heads turn
like seriously this car was PINK and looked like a tiny firebird
having so many hours to myself to just create things and explore
the fair every summer
having a Taco Bell in walking distance
fresh citrus falling off the neighbor’s trees and landing in our yard
fresh pomegranates from the other neighbors
Six Flags
my awesome closet
my loft bed
black widow spiders of all things
the swimming pool in the backyard
I mean I even miss my car insurance office ffs it was in this awesome historic brick building on main street

“All human babies look alike to me,
Like little pink raisin-Yoda hybrids.”

-me, answering the question(s) “So, are you seeing anyone yet? …but don’t you want to have kids while you’re still young?”

100,000% done with feeling like I’m trapped on the teacup ride

can I sue the government for GIVING ME ULCERS and also making me so frustrated that I smashed up my wrist?

but like really, how are little old grannies supposed to figure this shit out when I CAN’T EVEN DO IT with a MENSA IQ and perfect hearing and eyesight?