Sometimes when I am feeling sad, I remember that Megatron gave me his personal permission to destroy all Autobots as I see fit.

I haven’t put my Marvel films away in months. It’s gotten so bad that I have to go running around the house to find what player I left which movie in.

I just remembered a random moment from the con, backstage of the Masquerade. I was sitting next to a girl who was going to make a cameo in my performance, and there was another cosplayer on the other side of her. And then she looked at me, and there was this moment when she suddenly realized that she was sitting between Loki and the Joker and she somehow gave us both a simultaneous Black Widow Glare of Doom.

And then the Joker just looked past her, at me, and we sort of slowly each did our character’s “crazy” grins at the same time, eliciting a Natasha Eye-roll.

It was absolutely a magical moment.

Leaving for con in 2 days.

Cosplayer who told me 2 weeks ago that she wouldn’t be going, calls up and says “oh, I won’t know until tonight if i’m going or not”. Problem is, whether or not she goes determines what vehicle we take and how early we leave. And her car has air conditioning. Considering we’re driving through the hottest part of the state in the summer…THAT MIGHT BE NICE TO HAVE.

There are a million tiny details that I need to figure out as far as what to bring. I can’t find the not-costume clothes that I wanted to wear, even though I have literally done every piece of laundry I can find in my possession.

Also, my costume is finished and that never happens, so I’m panicking a little that I must have forgotten something. (as if I need more to worry about, I am making things up at this point?)

And all I really want to do is anything except pack.

hardcore procrastination is happening.

minamarrrina:

True story my therapist told me it is 100% natural and healthy to have attachments to fictional characters, especially strong hero types because they may have flaws but in the end they always save the day and some people just need that constant positive force in their life.

I’m attracted to villains and my therapists keep moving away.

Here goes nothing.
Attempting to do paper maché for the first time since…I’m guessing kindergarten.
Please dear cosplay gods let it be as I remember.

Sometimes I swing the refrigerator door closed and let it swing shut by itself, and do a little flourish thing with my hand like I used the Force or something, just for the fun of it. Today, I did that, but it didn’t close all the way, it just stopped partway and I was standing on the other side of the kitchen already when I waved my hand and it creaked shut anyway as I waved. Then I noticed my dad staring at me like 0.0 and I stared back at him and we just stared at each other for a while until he slowly went back to eating dinner like nothing had happened.

Someday

I am going to walk into a computer store, wearing a black outfit with yellow circuit piping, find the software section, and say very loudly “GREETINGS, PROGRAMS!”