Tag: personal

@virescent-phosphor your radar is just fine, lol.

Apparently I need my own  readjusted because I seem to be the most surprised of anyone. It’s amazing what one weekend at comic-con and one brain montage of Little Life Moments can do to undo decades of self-delusion. Finally realizing I wasn’t a fail at being human was amazing. And also that a lot of my choices in life sort of stemmed from being uncomfortable with being shoehorned into a gender role and orientation that didn’t fit. Oh yeah, I’m gf too.

As for LDR, yeah I have done that a few times. The longest one lasted years and it was epic…until we spent a lot of time together in real life and I realized we weren’t really a great match.

Tis the season for doctor appointments, hospitals, and testing, government interrogation and disability review, and everyone around me being stressed to the gills.
Merry fucking Christmas. Get out of my face.

I’ve spent my entire life listening to too many voices that weren’t mine. The more I hear my own, the more terrifying it is. There’s something oddly familiar about being constantly manipulated, constantly used, if it’s all you’ve ever known. I know more and more that I need to be alone. I can’t trust anyone.