Tag: sparkthoughts

Today was weird. I had a really good talk with my mortal enemy, and then I watched football and burned the french fries, and now I feel a lot better about life in general.
I think I’m just going to have to give up on the analysis of this one.

I think for Thanksgiving, I’ll just reply to all questions with a blank stare and “I am happy to comply” or “Hail Hydra” and maybe they’ll think they’ve finally been successful and they’ll stop trying.

Thanksgiving is gonna be hell this year, and I kind of doubt we’re going to have much of a Christmas celebration. The whole holiday thing feels like some weird alien tradition that I don’t understand anymore, but I’m being forced to observe anyway. (why all the smiling cartoon turkeys? it’s not like turkeys approve of being eaten as part of a tradition, and it’s kinda disturbing.)

I’ve got a lot to be thankful for this year, but most of it isn’t something I can safely share around the dinner table with the relatives.

Christmas is usually my favorite because I love giving gifts, but this year I can’t afford to do much and it’s kinda killing me.

I don’t know. I just want it all to be over.

Sitting here sobbing

actual tears

over my decision to sell my old horse tack.

I’m not even that attached to it emotionally. It’s not like Rain ever wore it or even got near it. I think it’s more the idea of what it represented to me. The dream. Going to the tack store and choosing it out for that someday when I would have a use for it. And as long as I had that tack, I could always do saddle-lifting exercises and pretend there was a horse standing there to put it on. There was always that connection to the horse world.

But it’s also kind of a giant painful space-hogging reminder that I’m no longer an active part of that world and that it’ll probably be quite a while before I can be again.

I’m keeping the saddle blanket I got in New Jersey and the stupid broken halter I got at my first lesson stable though.

Most days I am pretty patient and tolerant of people.
But I have come to realize that there are some days when I cannot HANDLE people who can’t read a simple FAQ before asking the same questions everyone else has asked fifty thousand times.

*pulls hair out, lights it on fire, and throws it at them*

kai-ni:

immortalspark:

I am so disoriented. I didn’t know it was Friday until I saw the garbage truck outside this morning.
why wasn’t I notified that Friday had happened?

Friday is hERE

But why is Friday here?
I think I thought I was in perpetual Wednesday because I was in denial about Thursday. So in my mind, Thursday never happened.
I am really confused.