Tag: sparkthoughts

Me: OHH I’M GONNA GET THE GUARDIANS VOL. 2 SOUNDTRACK 😀 And then I’m gonna listen to it all the way through!
Me 1 hour later: nopenopenopenopenope this was a bad idea abort emotions can’t handle abort stop

Person: oh you have a chronic illness? drink water! 😀
Me: do you know what chronic means and also do you know how much water I drink because I’m betting it’s a gallon a day more than you do

Same Person: I’M SICK I HAVE THE FLU HELP ME HOW DO I GET WELL??
Me: Drink water! Fluids! Rest!
Person: ewww I hate water I never drink it gross

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k so
I really loved the Disneyland Tower of Terror but
I’m also on a REALLY BIG GotG kick right now and I rode the ToT like 50,000 times so I’m not really that sad about it. I mean it was cool and all but no Haunted Mansion, and once you’ve seen it a few thousand times, you’ve seen it. I, for one, think the GotG themeing has a fantastic potential for the space and it looks like they were able to pack a massive amount of detail into it.

tl,dr haters can suck it. I wanna go save the Guardians.

I CAN NOT WAIT to get all my cosplay gear together and working and really rock the cons this summer/fall and next year with my cosplay buddy and maybe find some more Guardians to play with and have dance-offs with people (successful or not) and just generally have fun.

Every character I play is important to me in some way, helping me understand some aspect of myself or deal with some situation I can’t control. Sometimes it’s been a way to channel feelings I can’t reach any other way. But this feels different somehow. I’ve never connected with a character the way I connect to Peter Quill, and it’s made me bolder. Maybe Tumblr is not the place to share such revelations but I’ve got to write it somewhere. I just genuinely feel like I’m home in this outfit and this mindspace. This “yeah, I’ve seen some shit, I’ve survived some stuff that maybe shouldn’t have happened, and things can overall suck, but I’m still optimistic and I still can look at the universe with some wonder and I’m still gonna dance and laugh and smile, because otherwise how is life even worth the pain?” I can’t afford to lose that part of myself. I may be skeptical and a little bitter, but I can’t close myself off and turn into a hermit. I’d never survive.

There are things about me I’m starting to come to terms with, and I’m feeling bolder. Less afraid. I don’t know where this is going, or if it’s gonna last, but I’m sure enjoying the ride.

if you’re ever feeling awkward please remember me and that I have a very good online friend who I have known for close to a decade, who does not know my real online voice because I never once used a xD face or said LOL while speaking with her and I probably never will and I’m instead going to continue living this double life forever.