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I am about to have no reliable internet after tonight, but I will check in when I can. If you’re following me for cosplay, figures, and fun fandom stuff, I should continue with that as far as I know. Not sure when I will be back to RP and STO. If you see me at a con or renfaire, say hi! I probably won’t get to many events, but whenever I have a ride, I will be out there!

my life has radically changed in the past year and I have been in an
ever-increasing dark place and I don’t know who I am anymore or even
where I am. I wake up not knowing which part of the country I am in or
if my legs are still attached and at some point I stopped caring.
Tomorrow I am starting a new life in a new town after spending a month
in limbo and I really need this to work out. People keep telling me that
I should have done more about my dreams and my life and my body and my
family falling apart, and I mentally scream because I know I did
everything I could. I can not deal with hearing about all the things I
should do to fix myself and other people around me. I also can’t deal with the crap and hate messages I’ve been getting on here from people who follow my ex-roommate. I can’t. All I can
do right now is pretend to have a positive attitude and try to keep
going until I can crawl back out of this hole. Really looking forward to having a nice private hermit cabin for a while, though I also know I’m going to get lonely out there.

also I bought a bb gun to turn into Owen Grady’s gun for cosplay as kind of a final hurrah despite it not being a legal thing to bring to cons
basically I am going to dress like Owen and sit outside my trailer with it I guess. Totally logical purchase yep.

kai-ni:

immortalspark:

*falls asleep with toy raptors on the edge of bed*
*gets startled awake in the middle of the night by a plastic dinosaur falling on my face*

Well I mean what did you expect

I know, that’s what I get, right? I usually have some kind of figures up there but Lefty the Raptor was the first to decide to demand attention in the wee hours.

All I hear when I talk about history is how it’s boring and I just…?
HOW IS IT BORING it is literally a nonstop action/political drama/romance/horror/thriller stretching back thousands of years. It’s every conceivable story you could want to see told. It’s where we came from and where we’re going, it’s dreams and failure and wars and love and frustration and tragedy and friendship and conspiracy and triumph and hope and all the little moments that sometimes get forgotten. We’re living it right now. every single person everywhere is living it, and at some point a hundred years ago, every single person was living it then too, and for every other moment before and since, and it’s going to keep happening and keep being written even as we watch it, and we can affect it, and then it will keep going even after we’re gone…to me that’s fascinating and amazing and not at all boring.

Thoughts on ‘80s Knight Rider “Trust Doesn’t Rust”/”KITT vs KARR”

So I had a kind of a Knight Rider marathon last night. I watched the pilot, both KARR episodes, Soul Survivor, and a couple other random ones. I might do the Goliath and Garth ones later. Trying to catch some of the highlights before they go off Netflix and I only own a few of the episodes.

But I had apparently never seen KITT vs KARR before? And it had been ages since I saw any KR at all. Anyway here are my thoughts on that. Spoilers below (in case y’all haven’t gotten to the early 80s yet)

“Trust Doesn’t Rust”

OH MAN. ALL MY FEELS. ALL OF THEM. FEELS EVERYWHERE. Ok so I adore KITT. I had the biggest crush on him as a kid. Still kinda do. THAT BEING SAID I think KARR actually left the tire tracks on my heart. Yes I am that cheesy. I’m reviewing 80s buddy cop AI tv shows on tumblr what the frack do you expect I’ve always had a difficult time seeing KARR as sinister. Maybe it’s the voice (PETER CULLEN fgs). Maybe it’s that he’s so clearly -not- a fully developed AI like KITT. He’s very…not sure if childlike is the right word? KARR is limited by his programming (and feels betrayed by his original programmer…that is very clear. He also seems pretty resentful of KITT’s existence) and just trying to understand the world by what context clues he’s been given. He’s just a program trying to have a purpose. He doesn’t go out of his way to murder people. In fact…there really isn’t a part of this episode where he seems outright…bad? He does what the humans tell him should be done. He makes them rich. All he asks in return is for some repairs. And then they betray him. AGAIN. (the HUMANS are the ones beating each other up though) So he makes a run for it and KITT and Michael run him off the road and over a cliff. Basically.

He might not be as cute and cuddly as KITT, just because he doesn’t particularly care about whether or not humans live or die…but…? He’s not actually malicious. And he does try very hard to get along with the humans (not sure if it’s because he realizes a self-driving car is suspicious or not). Overall, yes he is threatening, but I see no evidence of Evil Computer at play here.

Fast forward two years to…

“KITT vs KARR”

I tried so hard to not get caught up in the campy inconsistencies but…oh man.
Ok I’ll buy that Undestructible Supercar could have flown off that cliff and not been damaged but HE LANDED UPRIGHT. Magic. Also somehow falling off a cliff changed the light color in his scanner. UH OK SURE. I miss Cullen’s voice already. But it is cute that he decides to take the humans for a joyride. Especially given that he seems to now have the ability to blackout his windows and thus no longer -needs- humans to be seen driving him.

But he has chaaaaaanged. Granted, after being constantly betrayed, shut down, THROWN OFF A CLIFF, and left for two years to be buried by sand (how come he didn’t wake up and drive off before then? how come the Knight Foundation DIDN’T GO OUT to retrieve what they thought were the remains of their HIGHLY classified prototype? why was his program never freaking FIXED ISTG) I’d be grumpy too, but this is weird. His AI has advanced alarmingly. He’s gone from “YOU ARE HUMANS. YOU REQUIRE FOOD, YES? LET ME TAKE YOU TO FOOD.” to a grandiose, mustache twirling, “Step inside, my children, I shall show you the pleasure of leaving all your responsibilities behind for a life of crime”. (Ok, I tried to be on board with this by going with the “all programs desire to be useful” thing, and he’d had so much success in the past as a getaway car…but he’s just gotten so darn over-the-top). He actually compares himself to the Genie from Aladdin. He nearly kills a person and then makes a casual comment to the person about it later. About the only part of this that made any sense was when instead of going after the armored truck, he was actually setting a trap for KITT. I CAN BELIEVE he’d want revenge.

Michael makes a comment that “leaving loose ends” isn’t like KARR, or something to that effect…and…uh…what? We met the guy once and I don’t recall him murdering his accomplices then. I don’t recall him murdering ANYONE then. In fact, KARR was only violent when he was defending himself or his drivers. Suddenly he’s like…hehe I can kill this guy if I shut off his pacemaker.

wut.

Also if his primary function is self-preservation, why did he turbo-boost front-first into KITT when that was his vulnerable spot? Unless now his primary function is revenge/being evil.

This episode is such a mess. Maybe I can justify it to myself by saying KARR was awake those last two years and all he could do to pass the time was watch TV and learn about humans, and think about how much he hated the universe.

I’ve gone from thinking “this drawing I’m working on is so creepy, I can’t even look at this, it’s gonna give me nightmares” to “this drawing is actually kinda cute in a creepy way” so I guess that’s progress.