
We live in a spaceship, dear.

We live in a spaceship, dear.
reblog this post and tell me who made u realize u were attracted to women i love to hear these
the top answers are
1. gillian anderson
2. so there was this girl at camp
Captain Jack Harkness. Sort-of.
She was in costume as Jack, I was in costume as a different dude from a different series, and we were flirting as our personas would most certainly do if they were to meet. It didn’t really hit me until sometime after the con, damn she was cute OOC too.
And then I remained very confused and conflicted for a few months until I just said, heck with it. My gender has never really been one solid thing, why should my sexuality be any different?
Thinking back on my life, there were oh, so many others I tried -not- to find attractive, but that was the crystallizing moment.
it’s 1:30 am and I should be in bed but I have internet for the first time in ages
and also every time I go to bed, the trains comethe trains know.
… Trains? Are there tracks near your place or is it, like, train dreams? Train dreams are weird as shit.
The tracks are a few miles away, but my trailer is in a valley just perfectly situated to funnel the train sounds right at me. It sounds like they are literally right outside, and my trailer shakes when they go past. They blow their whistles repeatedly, long loud blasts (one is actually doing it right now as I type). And the trains don’t have a schedule, they just go whenever they feel like it. Usually all night long.
I keep having this dream that I live in a train car, but then an engine is coming barreling down the track, whistle blowing, and smashes through it (waking me up to a real whistle and panic).
it’s 1:30 am and I should be in bed but I have internet for the first time in ages
and also every time I go to bed, the trains come
the trains know.

New favorite photo of my Loki outfit.
this is strangely adorable
NOOO THIS IS SO CUTE!!!! OH NO!!!! THE FUTURE IS HERE AND IT IS ADORABLE!!!
Not dead, just still without reliable internet.
I am about to have no reliable internet after tonight, but I will check in when I can. If you’re following me for cosplay, figures, and fun fandom stuff, I should continue with that as far as I know. Not sure when I will be back to RP and STO. If you see me at a con or renfaire, say hi! I probably won’t get to many events, but whenever I have a ride, I will be out there!
my life has radically changed in the past year and I have been in an
ever-increasing dark place and I don’t know who I am anymore or even
where I am. I wake up not knowing which part of the country I am in or
if my legs are still attached and at some point I stopped caring.
Tomorrow I am starting a new life in a new town after spending a month
in limbo and I really need this to work out. People keep telling me that
I should have done more about my dreams and my life and my body and my
family falling apart, and I mentally scream because I know I did
everything I could. I can not deal with hearing about all the things I
should do to fix myself and other people around me. I also can’t deal with the crap and hate messages I’ve been getting on here from people who follow my ex-roommate. I can’t. All I can
do right now is pretend to have a positive attitude and try to keep
going until I can crawl back out of this hole. Really looking forward to having a nice private hermit cabin for a while, though I also know I’m going to get lonely out there.
also I bought a bb gun to turn into Owen Grady’s gun for cosplay as kind of a final hurrah despite it not being a legal thing to bring to cons
basically I am going to dress like Owen and sit outside my trailer with it I guess. Totally logical purchase yep.

Be free, new friend. Go forth and scare people.

You’re gorgeous, baby.